I started college this week at MTSU in Murfreesboro, TN! I am so excited to be back at school after 10 years away, but I have to confess to a whole host of other feelings bouncing around this week, too.
I remember when I was 18, 20 years ago, and first went to college. I was at my local community college, Haywood Community College, in North Carolina. I had my friends from High School at my side and felt then that college was just a comfortable extension of my High School years. I would hang out with my friends all day between classes, made new friends, and got a huge taste of freedom and...adulthood, without really being all that grown up. I liked it, but, as many 18 years old people often do, I felt restless and the need to speed up my life. Instead of taking the opportunity I had then to finish my education, I left school with a little more than a year under my belt, got married, and had my two children. I was an Army wife. We moved several times and finally seemed to settle down long enough for me to go back to school in 98/99. This time, even though the desire was deep to stay and finish, life and lack of money prevented me from doing so.
I have wanted to return and finally finish ever since, and now my dream is coming true!
But, I have to say, college is hard, my head is hurting, and my feet are sore! I am loving it!
I really love the campus, but did they have to make it 5 miles from one class to the next? It is so beautiful, but at this point in my life when my knees are arthritic, my back is hurting, and my body is large, I would prefer compact to pretty. I think all of this walking and hurrying is supposed to be good for me, but time will tell.
I also forgot that cute shoes do not cut it. I was at the shoe store faster than you can read this sentence trading in my cute shoes for some with more cushion and less cute. I like them. My feet still hurt, but I am optimistic that by the end of this long weekend they will recover.
Germs. Germs are those things that attack 38 year old women with such viciousness that they knock her out cold! Young people have lots of germs. They are still resilient and resistant. I am not. I am so sick! I would diagnose myself as having the flu. My head hurts in a bad way. My body aches. I am sure I have a fever of at least 105. Next week I intend to arm myself with a mask, hand sanitizer, and maybe even a full body condom for protection against those sniffling kids...oops, young adults.
Now, back to my mixed emotions. I really had to talk myself into going back to school, and if my friends and family had not been as encouraging as they are, I would probably not be back in school. I used to be that student who sat in class, took some notes, and aced everything without breaking a sweat. Even at 28 I could still do that. I could also cram at the last minute, put off studying until it was vital, and still get very good grades. I can't do that any more. College this time around will be harder and take more devotion for those high grades. I worry that I won't do well, but I intend to do everything in my power to rise above my age.
I also worried about the perception of the other students. I worried that I wouldn't fit in at all and that I would be looked at like a three headed monster for invading the territory of the really young. I finally had to make up my mind that I cannot do anything but be myself and make my way as I see fit, just as I would do anywhere.
My classes so far are great, with the exception of the freaking science class I am being forced to take. Thankfully, I only have 2 credits left to complete my general education requirements! I am thrilled that will be over quickly. I hate science. No, really, I hate it. I do not get it either, which leads to more hate.
I wanted to feature some Etsy items that would be perfect in my world right now! Please, enjoy!
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